I am not feeling so good today. My stomach is on fire. I really should go back to bed. I am grateful that today can be a quiet day to rest.
Studying the scriptures today a began to wonder, what makes a person want to know the scriptures. Do I study scriptures so that others think I am smart or a scriptorian? Or do I study the scriptures because I love them? I do want to know them. I do want them to be a strength in my life. I want to be close to the Spirit. I want to be able to recognize the Savior if and when I see Him. I have to work hard to get them in daily. Daily life and my own limitations overwhelm me at times. These moments are the moments I need the scriptures the most and are also the moment I am tempted the most to skip it for the day. I am growing in confidence that is I can increase prayerful scripture study my mind and my heart will be instructed in all the things I need. I think the Lord is always asking us, “What desirest thou?” perfectly prepared to give us the answers we are seeking.
I am also impressed with Nephi’s answer to the angel when asked if he believed the words of his father. Hie answer was “Yes! I believe.” Makes me ponder… what do I believe? Do I believe the words of the Lord spoken in the past? Do I believe His words shared with us today? Do I believe that God answers prayers and that angels teaching us is a reality? Do I believe that God guides me and my family? I have come to the conclusion that I need to increase me faith, even if I can say I believe and have faith in these concepts. Nephi believed AND wanted a deeper understand. That is where I am. I believe AND I want to develop the faith to gain a deeper understanding.
I think what I want to understand the most is “the love of God.”
John 3:16 – “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoso believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
Charity is love. It is God’s love. Charity is definitively something I need to work on.