Long… long day. The best part may actually be the sugar-free (sweetened with stevia) salted almond chocolate that come in the mail today.
Today I am grateful for scripture study in the morning. Today’s study had me pondering all day, “Am I working hard enough to open my eyes? Do I see that Jesus “is in the midst” and I can not see Him? I would suspect that is true. This became a distraction for me all day.
Today’s prayer focus was on asking… reaching for the stars and asking for the impossible. I find that I stick to asking for the obvious, the things I know God will do. Some of my deepest desires I don’t ask for. I think I am afraid of “what if He doesn’t answer?” or “what if I don’t like His answer?” Days like today teach me that His teaching to “ye of little faith” is to me! I have faith, but it is small and sometimes I resist laying my burdens and desires completely at the feet of the Savior. Sometimes I metaphorically chase Him down and wrestle the burden or concern away from Him, insisting that I carry it for my self. I know it sounds silly, but I also know I need to work on completely trusting him. I often miss out on the full purpose and plans God has for me because I am afraid to let go of control.
“Help thou my unbelief.”
This morning I wrote BOLD requests down on my sticky notes. However, the adversary is not looking to see me successful in the journey and kept me distracted throughout the day with business and frustrations. I will take that as a sign that the adversary is afraid of what will happen if I put my complete trust in Jesus and allow Him to carry my load. I will take it as a sign that blessing come when I patiently “wait on the Lord.” I will take it as a sign that the possible will happen when I invite the Lord to be a part of my day.
Today I am thank for the opportunity to see a few students in person.
Today I am grateful for the happy smile John greeted me with when I got home 14 hours after I left home.
Today I am grateful that when John discovered the dog had made a mess on the carpet while we were all gone, he immediately got the carpet cleaner out and cleaned it up.
Today I am grateful for Lilli’s help at rehearsal. I am also grateful for Jeff’s help, Izzy and Sage’s suggestions when I was stumped, and the patience of the entire cast while I fumbled around. I hate it when I do that.
Today I am grateful for egg salad sandwiches and for chocolate from the mail.
Today I am grateful for a productive Production Meeting with Krista for Apple Box Children’s Theatre. Auditions and planned… Director’s Concept shared.
Today I am thankful for friendly conversations with Julie at work.
Today I am grateful for the kind words from a few of my students today. I really did needed to hear that from them all today.
What are you grateful for today?