#gratitude, gratitude

An Attitude of Gratitude Experiment 2.0 Day 134

Today the focus of prayer was an exercise in yielding… surrendering to the Lord’s will. This has proven to be much harder than I thought. I really did think I was pretty good at moving through life doing what God wants. But today I was very conscious of yielding to the Spirit, yielding to God and releasing my grip on the need to control my life.

I recognize that I have responsibility for the choices I make in my life, but living a yielding life allows me the freedom to rest… to rest knowing that someone else has a much bigger stake in my success. Someone else is invest in guiding my daily journey. Today I am grateful for the reminder that to surrender takes work, a lot of work! To surrender means that I can’t move faster than God nor faster than He has empowered me to move.

Today I focused on finding where I needed to trust God more. What would my life look like if I truly let Him do all the heavy lifting? Today my notes were few.

Today I focused on talking from the heart, even if it didn’t make sense. God knows my heart, right? I just attempted to focus on listening, yielding, and moving forward. Today wasn’t as peaceful and joyful as yesterday. Still, I am grateful for the experience and the opportunity. I am grateful that through this exercise I learned how important yielding is and how much further I need to go to truly surrender my life to God’s will.

I started the day a bit foggy and groggy. When my feet hit the floor, my left foot had a stabbing pain in the heel. My foot was stiff and I could barely walk. Still… I am grateful for a new day to learn new things.

Today I am thankful that I was able to work my way through a few parent/teacher conferences. I am grateful that those conversations went well.

Today I am grateful I was able to finish choreography for the song I needed to block before rehearsal began. Rehearsal was really a lesson in humility, or humiliation, depending on how you look at it. I have big ideas in my head, but I struggle to find the words to teach the dance steps. I will have to finish the dance tomorrow because I struggled to communicate. sigh… and this was a source of great frustration for Lilli, who had to step up and be my “body” because my body is too big, inflexible, and not strong enough to do what I want. Today I am grateful that she stepped up and tried her best to make sense of my dumb ideas. Today I am grateful for the handful of girls that got it and that it isn’t a complete train wreck.

Today I am grateful that I got the light cues for Lilli’s pageant dance finished. She has done such a good job with her dance. She did not get her talents from me. I can only dance in my head. She can express herself beautifully as she moves. Today I am thankful that I can be a shadow to her brilliant light.

I am grateful for the opportunity to straighten my teeth and to fix my bite, even if my mouth is super sore and very sensitive!

Today I am thankful that John and three other ladies came to the ward Temple and Family History Relief Society activity. I am deeply saddened by the lack of support. No one from the ward counsel nor the RS Presidency came to support it. But I am thankful for those who did come. It was fun to hear their stories and to make a connection with them as we got to know each other better.

Today I am thankful that John had dinner done and waiting after I got home at 9:45 pm – after working from 7:30 am- 6:45 pm, hosting the RS activity from 7:00-8:00 and programing light cues from 8:00-9:30. I was tired and hungry (I had been fasting since the evening before). I am so grateful that on these long days John helps me.

Today I am grateful for the last bit of energy God gave me today to have the opportunity to write and share the story of my day.

What are you grateful for this fine day?

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