Forward Steps

Self Reflection

It’s been a rough week. School has been tough. Rehearsals are slow. I got my COVID booster Friday and spent Saturday and most of Sunday feeling like I got run over by a truck. Today I mostly feel better… I am just so tired. The whole, I-feel-crappy situation caused me to temporarily fall off the intermittent fasting whole foods mostly veggies train. Tomorrow I will start again.

I did okay for the first part of the week though. Here what I remembered to document: chicken and salsa salad on Monday; Cabbage and sausage on Tuesday. Left-over cabbage and sausage, plus left-over chicken and a piece of Provolone cheese on Wednesday; Spaghetti and meatballs on Thursday; Japanese curry with cauliflower rice on Friday; Saturday and Sunday is a blur.

I’ve had cause to engage in self reflection and it sucks. It mostly sucks because things I have been working are not making progress. It always seems like self reflection is like getting dressed in the dark and putting your shirt only to find out during class, while you are teaching, that you put it on inside out and your shoes don’t actually match.

Maybe is sucks because my perception has been the progress is being made… the reality hits.

I usually try to be up beat in my blogs, but I’ve decided its okay to be raw and real once in a while. That’s not to say that I’m ready to throw in the towel and stop trying. I’m just acknowledging that things are not where I thought they were. Now it’s time to start over and to try again.

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